朋友？

瞒久没来部落格了。。
突然想念它了
还是觉得它最好
至少可以跟我分享我的喜怒哀乐


在想


朋友这两个字到底意味着什么？
它的意义又是什么
一直以来
我都相信着
‘多一个朋友好过多一个敌人’
这句话
可是我知道这个世界是残酷的
事实是残酷的
没有多少个人会像我这么单纯
或许说一个都没有


现在的每个人
都会有防备之心
都会保护自己
不让自己受伤害，受骗
有时候
身边的朋友都说我没防备心
单纯
容易相信别人
不会保护自己


我回答他们说
‘为什么做人要那么辛苦
把事情想得那么复杂呢？
难道就不能以一颗单纯的心来看吗
你对人家好，人家就会对你好咯
不要想那么多啦’
他们都会不约而同地说
‘这个世界就是那么残忍’


有时候真的很不明白
想不通


成经有一个好朋友
时常提醒我做人要学会保护自己
不要老是给人家欺负
还教我做人的道理
‘他’跟我说
不要那么容易相信朋友
就算是好朋友也一样
信一点就好
不要什么都跟人家说
要保有自己的秘密
我们一直以来也都知道谁在说真心话还是骗话
我们可说是无所不谈
就这样
我对‘他’的信任
是无可否认的


直到
‘他’变了
‘他’让我失望了
‘他’说了让我心疼的话了
‘他’不再教我做人的道理了
‘他’不再出现在我面前了
‘他’又想太多了
‘他’没跟我说话了
‘他’甚至没跟我联络了
我对‘他’的信任，友情
逼不得已的
慢慢的
少了
‘他’不再是我认识的他了


说什么知心朋友
都是骗人的
我知道
也很清楚
我不再是你的知心朋友
你不再需要我这个朋友了
对吗


别再胡思乱想了
根本就不是你想的那样
有时候不是一定是你想的就是对的
让我说一次对的
好吗
我们真的就只是朋友那么简单
我对你就只有好朋友的友情
明白了吗
我没有骗你的理由

happy birthday daddy..

its my dad b'day 2day =)

wish him a very hapi bday here..

hope all d thgs goes well tis year..

n wish him healthy oways..

went seremban 4 seafood v his bunch of frens yday..

headed 2 his fren house 4 karaoke session after tat..

went home at 1+..

2day spend whole day in banting..

eating non stop..

im so dam fat nw..

gained lot of weight =(

gonna keep fit la..

aiks..

n finaly..

tis's my dad =D

brunch..

went 4 brunch v mich 2day..

choose sakae sushi..

nt rili nice..

still prefer sushi zanmai..

went shoppin a while..

bought 2 clothes..

she shops lik crazy..

cz thr're 30% dis..

ended up wil full hand..

thr's been sum time i haven c her..

tis d 1st time she c me after i cut my hair..

nth much..

chaoooz...

new year eve..

went dad's fren house 4 bbq yday..

i love his house garden very much..

d environment is so nice n relaxin..

n nice 4 shooting =P

me n my bro keep takin pic once we reach..

he started 2 bcum perasan ad..

have alcohol n play games..

red wines,whisky,beer..

woah..

drink quite alot..

bt luckily im nt drunk..

my bro is d 1 tat gt drunk..

haha..

1st time gettin drunk man..

went home around 4am..

take k of him til around 5am..

woke up at 9am n went bek kampung..

nw let d pics talk =)

d garden..

dad n bro..

me n dad..

mie =P

bro..

abang adik..

kakak adik..

bros

here comes food..

finaly,d drunken 1 =D

before and after..

made a very big decision 2day..

which is..

cut my hair rili short..

i cant blieve it oso..

every1 is askin me y so 舍得..

ask me 受了什么刺激..

i jz answered them..

new year,new hairstyle ma..

i've been telling myself since i cut my hair..

new year..

new hair style..

i wanted 2 4get everythg..

dun wana bring it 2 next year..

trust me..

i will 4get YOU!!!!

i will 4get everythg bout YOU..

let it past..

i'll keep you in my heart frm nw on..

scroll down 2 c my pic..

before and after..

dun be shock c-ing my new hair style..

holiday..

2 weeks+ holiday past..

n im doin nth..

slp..

eat..

watch tv..

n gained weight everyday..

im 2 lazy 2 go work..

feel so useless..

went 4 korean bbq 4 dinner jz nw..

it taste so so oli..

cant celebrate new year eve v my frenz..

its a rili bad news 4 me..

been force 2 follow family..

im gona b 20 neat year..

pls dont control me as if im a child..

im pissed..

sick..

i feel rili sick 2day..

slp til around 12 oli wake up..

feel pain at whole body..

keep sneezing..

feel cold..

bt sumtimes hot..

i thk im rili sick..

again..

i noe..

im oways sick..

my body is getting weak..

i dont wan 2 b '病猫'!!!!

movie..

its been quite a long time since i las went 4 movie..

watch 2 movie yday nite..

1st was alvin and the chipmunks..

thy're jz so cute n adorable..

very funny oso..

2nd was treasure hunter..

it was quite a boring movie..

i almost fall aslp in d cinema =(

tats it 4 tis post..

chaozzz....

merry x'mas..

merry x'mas every1..

may all of d dream cums true..

n all d best =)

dissapointed..

for some reason..

im dissapointed v u..

rili rili dissapointed..

tis's nt d 1st time i feel so..

i jz tel myself u have ur own reason..

im cheatin myself..

pursuing myself to trust u gain..

bt i thk i cant anymore..

nt anymore..

i cant b so stupid anymore..

i mus protect myself frm nw..

nt 2 blieve any1 so easily..

im 2 naive..

tis world is cruel..

i mus accept tis fact..

im tryin hard 2..

i cant tel out hw pain my heart is..

cant tel out hw dissapointed i am..

everythg jz cant be voice out..

oli my bleeding heart noe..

long lost friend..

currently found bek a long lost fren..

bt act nt so long oli la..

since form3..

since i change sch..

i nvr c her..

i rmb d time we spend durin sports 2gether..

both of us oso in gagebrown group..

lolx..which is brown colour..

dam ugly d lo..

we oways hide under d tree 2gether..

run 2gether..

laugh 2gether..

XD..

she gave me a nickname handkerchief..

bcz i oways carry a hanky v me durin sports period..

wuakaka..

n i gave her a nickname monkey zai..

bt i dun rmb y d..

hehe..

im hapi 2 meet u bek wai kia =)

im coming...

finally...

i've d chance 2 go bek pd..

i miss d time i spent thr so much..

all d memories thr is very unforgetable..

im goin pd 2 countdown x'mas..

v hui,mich n jian gor..

its lik a siblings trip..

im sure tis wil b a very fun trip..

n unforgetable..

i'll b bek on 25th ppl..

buh bye...

=)

yap sook hui,..

tis post is jz 4 u..

hohoho..i said i wil post it..

n i rili did it =P

webcam v my darling yday..

nth 2 do..

so take out my camera n capture...

=D

sum pic is v her..

wait til i gt it..

XD

chaozzzz...

long or short?

went 2 midvalley v hui n yee..

its a long time since i las meet yee..

stil same..

didnt change much..

nwadays very fan..

wondering shud i cut my hair..

i scare i regret after cut...

scare it doesnt suit me..

sumore it nid very long time 2 keep my hair long gain..

haiz...

dam fan la...

hw hw hw hw...

if thr's sumthg tat can c hw i looks lik after cut hair thn gd lo..

i thk im dreaming..

=/

你还是不懂

難以忘記初次見你　一雙迷人的眼睛

　在我腦海裡　你的身影　揮散不去

　握你的雙手感覺你的溫柔　真的有點透不過氣

　你的天真　我想珍惜　看到你受委屈　我會傷心

＃只怕我自己會愛上你　不敢讓自己靠得太近

　怕我沒什麼能夠給你　愛你也需要很大的勇氣

　只怕我自己會愛上你　也許有天會情不自禁

　想念只讓自己苦了自己　愛上你是我情非得已

什麼原因　我竟然又會遇見你

我真的真的不願意　就這樣陷入愛的陷阱

愛上你是我情非得已

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

哭泣

人为什么会哭？

心痛？

伤心？

失望？

开心？

感动？

你知道自己为什么哭了吗？

心情...

心情超糟糕的

不知这么了

低落？？

寂寞？？

心灵受伤？？

自己也不知道

睡不着

明明很累

心很乱

很辛苦

讨厌这样的自己

不坚强

不乐观

想哭可是哭不出来

i hate u!!!

I HATE U!!!!!

I HATE U!!!!!!!!!

I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhh.......

rain rain go away..

rain rain go away..

come again another day..

sudd thks of this song..

it rains from yday till tis morning..

never stop..

d wind is blowing so strongly..

very very cold..

even my heart can feel d cold..

whn wil it go..

no one noes..

lazy..

im gettin lazier n lazier..

lazy to on9..

lazy to update my blog..

lazy to study..

lazy to go college..

lazy to do wadever im suppose to..

laziness visits me all the time..

n the final is jz tis sat..

wth im doin..

slping...

eating..

watchin movie..

wtf is wrong v me..

duno wad i wan..

wads my future..

seriously..

i cant c my future anymore..

its so far n hard to reach..

im so so so far away...

im LOST!!!!

picta..

its been a long time since i las update..

poor my little blog..

im jz 2 bz 2 update..

sori every1..

wil upload little by little whn im free ya..

here's sum pic in term 5 =)

chaozz....

im sorry..

1st of all..

i would rili lik 2 apologise to u my dear..

i didnt mean 2 b mean at u..

i didnt mean 2 shout at u..

i didnt mean 2 blame u..

i rili didnt mean it..

i noe u do d slide til late nite..

i shud appreciate it..

n nt shoutin at u..

im jz nt in a gd mood jz nw..

i noe i lost control..

im rili rili SORRY..

pls forgive me =(

i feel rili rili bad 4 scolding u..

no offence pls..

u noe i love u rite..

n i noe u love me 2 =)

frenzzz til d end..

fuck off...

i hate u of who u r..

i rili dun wan 2..

bt u're forcing me 2 hard..

seriously...

im PISSED!!!

i cant take it anymore..

dun let me hear anythg of u anymore...

u moron..

such an idiot paranoid..

dun try 2 control me indirectly..

u're no one 2 do tat..

i've freedom in my own life..

i've freedom 2 do anythg..

without ur permission..

n whether u lik it or nt..

i hate u..

i hate u..

i hate u..

headache..

only have 1 class 2day..

ended around 10am..

have brunch v mich n zann..

went home..

slp d whole day..

have bad headache...

feel so enervated seriously..

international chef day..

its international chef day 2day..

mich didnt go college..

sumthg happened 2 her family..

no choice =(

have 2 b alobe tis 2 days..

we're require 2 wear chef jacket 2 college..

haha..

bt we wear sports shoe instead of safety shoe..

2 heavy la..adui..

sumore we've rili no chance 2 wear sports shoe in college...

XD..

we paid RM10 4 a lunch box voucher..

so called nyonya food..

nt bad la act..

fried rice,chicken,fish n sum vege in it..

sum is cooked by chef =)

nth special 2day...

its jz long long day cz we've 4 subjects in a day..

phew...

serving..

its been so long since my last serving..

i rili dun rmb whn it is..

lolx..

almost forgot all d SOP..

very very panic..

cant even clear d appetizer properly..

drops d cutleries..

embarrasing =(

haiz..

wine opening is ok..

bt d cork sux..

low quality punya ><

clearing d main course is d toughest..

i noe i cant clear all at d same time..

my hand shake lik shit..

arrrrgghhhh...

y la..

wad happen 2 my hand...

nid more practise i guess..

flambe is ok..

bt my mistake cz choose a wrong pan..

haiz..

nearly burnt..

luckily mr.alex help out..

wadeva...

1st serving in tis term was nt rili gd..

=(

n las..


my table setting...

outing...

woke up 11am+..

took my break1 n shower..

went shoppin v aunt n mummy..

happpie =)

headed to bangsar around 1+pm..

aunt want sumthg light for lunch..

choosed Chili's..

hoho..

have gt nth frm bangsar..

next destination..

mont kiara..

cant find our car..

3 of us goes frm 1 level to another...

finaly found our car..

phew..

weather changed..

frm sunny 2 rainy =(

dun enjoy rainin day..

walk into few shops..

no 1 suit my aunt's taste..

so conclusion is nth for d day..

2 bad..

went yamcha v mum n elder bro at oldtown,midah at nite..

tried d french toast..

it sux..

bt enjoyed the enriched white coffee =)

tats my day..

chaozzzz...

menu...

2 boring..

buffalo wing =P

ligtens up my life..

caeser salad with grilled chicken..

mushroom jack..

mie =D

'jiu jie chang'...

oldtown XD

bruise..

bruise on my thigh get worst..

1 day 2 1 day..

didnt expect it 2 turns tis bad =(

im afraid tat thr'll b scar next time..

sad larrrr...

haiz....

finaly my mum knew it..

thx 2 d super duper ke poh little bro..

wth..

he jz cant keep his mouth shut...

mum asked wad happened..

i lie..

i said i fall down in college..

she keep mumbling..

ask me dun wear so high heels..

=.="...

wadeva...

mum massage 4 me..

dam pain..

keep shoutin..

haiz..

pressie =)

im here 2 show off my pressie frm all my dear..

thx 2 ya all..

u guys noe who u r rite?

~ michelle moy ~

~ yap sook hui ~

~ low june er ~

~koh sook yee ~

~ jade lee ~

~ yong huey li ~

etc..

im sori if i didnt mention ur name here..

cant rili rmb ><

lolx..


here's d b'day card..

elianto eyeliner frm jadeeee...

CONDOM frm yong huey li..
i guess she needs more than me..
im single man =)

5 inches heel frm jadeee...
d tallest heel i ever had..
gosh!!!!

tis is d most important pressie!!!
d watch i wanted so much frm vincci..
n nw i owned it..
cant believe it huh??
haha..i have it!!!!
i have it!!!!